I don’t know if Mercury is in retrograde or the Earth is on a tilt or if the moon is in Leo…I don’t follow astrology to that depth as you have probably figured out but I do like to read my horoscope from time to time. I didn’t read it today but it might have said something like this “Be prepared for unexpected confrontation today. Be willing to listen and keep your mouth shut even if you don’t agree with the conversation. ” It might even have gone on to say ” You may have a bad day today, just go with the flow, this too shall pass.” Sure wish I’d read all of that before I started out on this day with 51 days left in this home.
Yuck. Some days just suck, some conversations just don’t make sense and sometimes it’s best to just walk away and agree to come back later when cooler heads prevail. Today was that day for me today. I was feeling agitated, I understand how a martini feels now, shaken AND stirred, and unclear as to why I was feeling agitated. I took myself out into the sunshine, took the dogs for a walk, worked on some business stuff and still I felt agitated. Tonight, after processing this rather yucky day, I think I know why. I’m ready to go now: I don’t want to wait another 51 days, I want to leave NOW…dammit I want to leave now. I’m ready for the new phase, the new place, the new journey and I’m feeling pretty impatient at the moment.
Big learning curve at this end: let it be, leave it alone, enjoy the time left here….Yes I will do that, yes I accept that this is my lesson and yes, I feel better now that I’ve processed my emotions but what a roller coaster I was on until then. Phew.
Tomorrow we are off to celebrate Canada Day with some friends in our new area and I’m looking forward to the company, the distraction and the diversion. Happy Canada Day everybody and, if you see Will and Kate, tell them I say hi!
